Since I’ve put on all the weight, I find that every so often I get on a healthy kick (usually because I’m frustrated with myself) and I decide I’m going to work out and eat healthy. Then, I either get bored with whatever routine I’ve started or don’t see changes fast enough. I’m thoroughly enjoying walking several times a week with my friend G from work. If you go back and look at the post I wrote when we started that process, I mentioned that I didn’t really expect to see a weight loss from it since we’re just walking (albeit a fast walk) and we’re only doing it twice a week. That being said, I started to see some minor changes in my calves and breasts. Sounds weird I know but I can tell. Then yesterday, when washing my face before bed I looked in the mirror and saw these huge logs attached to my shoulders. When the hell did my arms get so huge and how did I not notice? Apparently when you get fat, you also get delusional. Now, I’m not one of those wacko overweight people who still try to dress in clothes meant for a supermodel. I’m aware that I’m overweight and I try to dress for my body type. I’ve never been self-conscious about my arms. I suppose that’s because after sixteen years of competitive swimming I didn’t really need to be. However, I didn’t get self-conscious about them when I gained weight either. I have a dear friend who is not overweight but who is still very self-conscious about her arms and I’m always telling her she’s crazy. When I got married, I wore a strapless gown, and I felt like a princess. We had to talk her into going strapless for her wedding (and she looked like a goddess by the way). Anyways, when I saw my arms in the mirror, there was an honest moment of pure and simple disgust. I don’t want to feel like that when I look in the mirror. So, I’m turning my frustration into motivation (for the moment at least, and hopefully long-term). I’m starting small again since making huge changes tends not to stick. The “agreement” I’m making with myself is that every weekend, I need to do a workout DVD and take the dog on a long walk. That’s it. Nothing major. I’m still going to walk with G after work and still going to slowly change my diet but for now, that’s Phase 2 of the healthier me.
If you’re sick of starting over, you have to stop quitting. ~ quote found on Pinterest